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Breathe Me – Sia

One of my favourite Australian music artists.

Help, i have done it, again
i, have been here many times before
hurt myself again today
and, the worst part is there’s no one else to blame

be my friend
hold me, wrap me up
unfold me, i am small and needy
warm me up and breathe me

ouch, i have lost myself again
lost, myself and i am nowhere to be found
yeah. i think that i might break
lost myself again and, i feel unsafe

be my friend,
hold me, wrap me up
unfold me, i am small and needy
warm me up and breathe me

be my friend,
hold me, wrap me up
unfold me, i am small and needy
warm me up and breathe me

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Cry – Rihanna

This song is a lot easier to listen to after getting over the past. Love RiRi ~~

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I’m not the type to get my heart broken
I’m not the type to get upset and cry
’cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don’t get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn’t mean a thing

[Chorus:]
My mind is gone, I’m spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I’ll drown
I’m losing grip, what’s happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I’m, in this condition
And I’ve, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you’ll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
’cause it’s hurting me to let it go
Maybe ’cause we spent so much time
And I know that it’s no more
I should’ve never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I’m sad to see us apart
I didn’t give to you on purpose
Can’t figure out how you stole my heart

[Chorus]

How did I get here with you, I’ll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I’m broken hearted, I can’t let you know
And I won’t let it show
You won’t see me cry

[x2]
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I’m, in this condition
And I’ve, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you’ll never see me cry

All my life…

Thankful for the Time I was Depressed

It’s Monday morning, that’s depressing enough already. But this, really is a serious #firstworldproblem.

I was intending to just post this picture I found online up on my Instagram. However the size of the photo was not square enough, so then this prompted me to either choose a quick post on Facebook, or actually blog a bit of a story behind what this picture meant to me.

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I have blogged about the tough time I went through with a relationship break-up. After going through at least 1 year of hurting myself emotionally, I finally had enough of the lies I was telling myself and decided to make a change so I could help myself.

I knew I needed to do this for myself.
I needed to do to this for my family.
I needed to do this for my friends.
Because somewhere deep down, I still cared.

I had to deal with a huge amount of guilt and negative feelings.I surrounded myself with positive people and positive environments. I knew that it wouldn’t be smooth sailing, but from every bad experience I would at least learn something.

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So I slowly started to reconnect with my friends. I made a turn around and started opening up my heart and my mind.

So I have been thinking about how grateful I am for the depression I went through, because it taught me to be stronger and it taught me what I didn’t want in my life. I recognize it’s ugly face and I still struggle sometimes to try avoid her. I am learning how to deal and live with her if she ever comes to visit.

I think, you wouldn’t understand unless you have met depression in the face and lived with him/her.

Everyone deals with depression differently and none of us are immune. We can seek professional help. We can seek support from trusted friends, or family. We can read about it and fill ourselves with knowledge.

There are many ways to help heal and recover from depression. It’s just a matter of what works best for you – and YOU need to make the commitment to yourself. You only owe yourself one thing and that is to take care of yourself. The rest of it will follow naturally once you are OK again.

You can do it, even if you need help. Taking the first step towards change is all you need to do.

Beyond Blue has a gold mine of information. If you are feeling lost, lonely and you don’t know what to do – please talk to someone. Even your local GP can be a really good start.

Someone will understand you.

Just pick up the phone and call 1300 22 4634
available 4pm-10pm

Thinking of everyone out there. Take care.

Lil x

Heavy Heart

Life has its’ ups and downs. Sometimes we need to know the bad so we can appreciate the good. We otherwise wouldn’t learn, live and grow. Do you have a ‘pick me up‘? xx

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger ~ Friedrich Nietzsche

A picture can tell a thousand words…

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But words have a lot of meaning too…

And then there’s music…